Redemption of a Rapist?

When? When will I realize,
Girl and the man is one and the same?
When to me will this strike,
She's not an object of any game?

When will I face it,
my enemy lust?
Why can't I see
It burns me to a pathetic dust?

When will I understand,
Form is a transient mirage?
When will I visualize,
It's flesh, bones, blood and trash?

When to me will occur the fact,
Body and Shit is the very same food?
Why then is it so hard for me
To make an effort and change for good?

When will I feel this in my heart,
I crushed her dream into a drop of tear?
When will I sow a tender gaze,
To see in her face a Smile flower.

When? When indeed will I awake?
That day she'll walk fearlessly again.
It's time to draw my sword and fight.
To wage this war within why the hell am I afraid!?

I pray I realize and save the Grace,
She's the goddess who carries this Human Race!